new born..

yesterday, 9.8.2011..

he became to be a father for 2 little twin gurls..

how fortunate he is..

he must be happy..

of coz im happy for him..

things that i've ever dream for when i was with him are not coming true..

but it's ok..this is people call destiny..

we must have faith..

believing Allah's power..

there must b wisdom hidden behind all these mater..

dont ever give up..trust Him..

rndu mereka...

24th june 2011: i went to perak juz for them..

especially the mother..

dh lma sy smpn hajat nk dtg sna n dorg masih setia mnunggu kedtgn sy..

i really had fun sepanjang msa ngn family kat sna..

almaklumlah sy ni ank bongsu, xd adik..

ble ngn dorg, bru sy dpt merasa jd sorg kakak..hehehe..

syaza, tirah, arif, ayunie..akak rndu kat korg..

niat di hati dtg sna nk menggembirakan si ibu n yg len..

wallahua'alam sama ade sy berjaya atau x..

tp serius rindu sgt kat dorg..

selama 3 ari 2 mlm sy ade kat sna..

sy menjangkakan yg sy xkn jmpe ngn si dia n xnk jmpe dia lgsung pn sbnrnye..

TAPI..

on the last day sy kat sna,..a few hours before i get the bus..

nk dikatakan takdirlh kot..

dia tba blk umah de n he was rite in front of me..

terkedu gler..mmg gler2 nervous..

jntung ni rsa nk ggur..

tp sruslh...even kecewa n mrh mcm mne sekali pn..

dlm ati tetap syg sgt kat de..

tp dh xmungkin ktorg boleh blk mcm dlu...

rsa sayu sgt tgk wajah de..rndu sgt kat de..

skrg ni mmg sgt2 dlm dilema..

sy xtau ape yg Allah nk tnjukkan kat sy..

jjur dr ati...

setiap kali terdetik ati tntg de..

msti sy akan berjmpa ngn de...

Ya Allah...hanya Kau sje yg tau..

mlm sblm sy berjumpa ngn de, terdetik dlm ati sy..

''Ya Allah..adakah masih ade peluang utk berjumpa ngn S..... lg?''

tp ternyata Allah mengizinkan sy berjumpa ngn de...

apakah tndanya 2?

semua 2 tggl jd tnda tnya dlm fkrn n jiwa sy..

sy berharap sy ditemukan ngn ssorg yg baik, yg leh tlg sy n leh membimbing sy ke jln Allah dunia n akhirat..

insyaAllah..amin..

hari bapa..

sempena hari bapa ni, sy nk ucapkn selamat ari abah kpd abah sy..

kpd bapa2 seluruh dunia..

to my abah, i LOVE u so much..

tp ktorg dh celebrate awal2 dh..terslh date plak..

btw, everyday is abah's day n mama's day..

love u so MUCH!!

mmmuuuuaaahh!!

updating....

dh lma xupdate blog..

so..how r u doing guys??

i'm getting better..

no more suffer..

but still..missing him..

ak pn xtau smpai ble ak rndukn de...

InsyaAllah lma2 akn hlg gak de dr ingatan ak kn?

tp ak berasa lbh tng skrg...

<3

to be continued..........

i'm sorry.

ZAK,kalo ko bce ni,

ak juz nk ko tau..

rsa serba slh sgt sbb asek kaco ko..

semata2 ak nk hlgkn kesunyian ak..

ak mntk mf kat ko tau..

ak xtau lh sma ade ak wat kptsn yg btol atau x..

ak wat kptsn ak xnk ggu ko lg

n ak xnk berhubung ngn ko lg..

serba slh sgt ak rsa..

kalo ko rsa terggu pn, ko xckp pn..

ak jd lg xsng..

ak msg pn ko xbls kdg2..

ak xmo ko ade bad perception psal ak..

ak syg kat ko..

sbg seorg kwn yg memahami..

mcm mne ak ckp ngn ko

n lyn ko,..

sma mcm ak ngn kwn2 yg len..

tp ak mntk mf lh kalo ko ade berpkrn yg len terhadap ak..

seriusly, ak sng kwn ngn ko..

selesa sgt n ak rsa happy..

ksdhn ak sume hlg ble ak dpt ckp ngn ko..

tp myb kdg2 timing ak xbtolkn??

ssh nk cari kwn yg btol2 leh memahami kte kn??

updated

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All nEw...

Assalamualaikum..

bermulanye kisah baru ak...

dan ak xkn lg pndg ke blkg..

melainkn ssuatu yg pnting...

ksdhn ak dh berlalu..dan kini ak nk start ngn mood baru..

kehidupan baru tnpa si dia..

lps ak ade dslr bru, sng ak nk lupekn sume bnda yg menyedihkn ak...

ak lbh focus ngn hobi bru ak amek gmbr..

i'm quite happy with my life right this time..

no more man..

no more fake love from anybody..

there are only loves from my family and friend..

especially love from Allah..

Alhamdulillah..skrg ak dh xbercelaru lg..

ak sht...

dan kini ak sdg menempuh final xm for this sem..

wish me luck buddy..

whatever comes to me, i'll try to face it 

and i'll never look down..

chayok!!

hehehe..bg sngt kat dr sndr plak..

gotta go 1st...

daaaa...~~

Islam agamaku..:)

assalamualaikum sbg pembuka bicara...

:)

alhamdulillah masih diberi pluang utk ak meneruskn kehidupan ak

ngn pnuh kbrktn insyaAllah..>)

btollh kta org yg berilmu..

ble kte mendekatkan dr kte kpd Allah,

kte akan merasa ketenangan n kemanisan Islam 2 sndr..

syukur Alhamdulillah ak dilahirkn sbg org Islam..

ari ni ak merasa lbh tenang n lbh tenteram..Alahamdulillah..

sesungguhnya Islam 2 indah dan mudah..

hanya kpd Allah kte sembah n mohon ketenangan...

thankx gak kat family yg sntsa support ak, kwn2 yg bg sokong ak

n tlg ak spjg ak berada dlm keadaan yg x menentu..

syukur Alhamdulliah..

biarlh org wat kte mcm mne pn, tp kte masih ade Tuhan( Allah) yg sntsa bersma 

hmba2nya...

kini ak mngerti..

jgn kerana dunia, kte abaikn akhirat..

dunia hnya smntra..tp akhirat yg abadi..

ingt tau kwn2..

syaitan sntsa berusaha nk sesatkn anak2 adam..

sma2 lh kte mencegahnye..ngeee~~

rsa mcm ustazah dh..hehe..

but this is real...

*love Allah

* love Prophet Muhammad

* love mama abah

* love family

* love u all..

proven...

i've seen everything today..

how well they knw each other..

how happy they are..

their pic proved everything..

it's kind of shock..

and sad..

but i feel very grateful bcoz..

from now on, i'm officially let him go n break..

i won't keep my heart 4 u anymore..

many times i tried to keep in safe our relationship..

but it never work..

bcoz there was no commitment from u...

for mohd syafiq b. sharuddin,

keep urself in healthy life..

dont let ur heart control ur mind...

jga dr awk..

jd laki yg bertggjwb..

jd kn cinta awk cinta yg agung..

cinta yg sejati...

cinta yg lahir dr hati..

cinta kerana Allah..

sorry for everything..

u r my history..

now I unDeRstAnd...

ok..skrg sy dh phm..

awk lbh sygkn de...

awk lbh care kat de..

i have no rite to stop u

n i have no rite to love u anymore..

eventhough i love u more than everything

but now i realize everything...

i won't get jealous anymore..

she has rite on u..

and u hve rite on her...

i try to 4 get everything about u..

GOSH!!

i miss u like crazy 

plus i'm getting mad..

please...

Ya Allah..jgnlh Kau biarkn ak berterusan berperasaan begini..

 

kEHanCurAn...

setelah 2 thun ak cbe pertahankn sgle impian ak bersamanya,

kini semua hancur berderai..

malahan ati ak terasa pedih sekali..

ak meletakkn kasih syg ak pdnya ngn pnuh kesetian pd drnya,,

tp npe de xleh setia pd dr ku??

berpisah ngn cara yg bek, ak leh trima ngn ati terbuka..

tp ak seakan2 xleh trima knyataan 

ngn ape yg berlaku skrg..

spjg perhubungn ktorg, ak menjaganya 

tp perpisahan tetap berlaku atas sbb2 tertntu..

ak rindu kat de..

ak syg kat de...

ak xmmpu nk tggung sksa prsn ni sorg2...

ak m'hrpkn de phm prsn ak..

tp ak slp...

xd spe yg phm prsn ak kcuali Allah..

stp ari ak mohon utk dbri kekuatan dlm dr ak..

ak mntk ak diberikn cinta yg sejati..

tp skrg, ak pkr cnta sejati hnya ade dlm cite fantasi..

di dalam realitynye, xwjud..

ak xcye cnta sejati...

cnta yg selama ni ak beri, xpnh dihargai,..

spelh dr ak??

untuk ak merasa cnta sejati...??

:(( :(( :((